Life, Love and Relationships

Cheers to a good and blessed life!!  I am finally 30 and currently on board a jet star plane flying back to a piece of my reality.

My 30th birthday celebration started with a crossover celebration at the east coast park with my equi friends here in Singapore.  There I blew off the candles on my first 30th bday cake.  I flew back to Manila and fought the irritations that come my way (thanks to my lack of sleep hehe), psyching myself that I shouldn’t let my day be ruined.  I received my first bday gift in the plane which was to solve my first sudoku puzzle!!  As I travel back to Manila, I can’t help myself from thinking how the day would turn out.  I told myself not to expect so much to avoid disappointment.

Until I finally saw my family and felt the joy in them upon seeing me on my birthday and to celebrate the Christmas season with them, that’s when my worries started to melt.  I went to the parlor then dragged my niece, nephews and sister to a studio and had a pictorial spree to mark my 30th birthday.  I also made it a point to confess and to attend a mass.

Evening came and I don’t know if my high school barkada will all be there.  Surprisingly, they appeared one by one each having his/her own dramatic entrances so to speak.  Two of my dear childhood friends celebrated with me and I was so happy seeing them.  A toast was made and wishes were said like to have answers to all of my questions, to find the one for me, MORE MEN! (courtesy of sam hahahaha), kids before my 35th bday, good health and happiness.  And as they say their wishes I’ve thought that these are the people that are so close and special to me and I am so glad to celebrate my day with them.  It’s as if I am going back to my roots to draw strength before I face the next phase of a mature life.  I’ve also shared my emotions and thoughts before the final toast and thank God I was able to control my tears! hehehe

After all the planning and anticipation, God led me to a perfect 30th bday celebration.  All events led me in celebrating with the people that defined my 30 years of existence.  Most of you might think that it was just a simple way of celebrating it but I can’t think of any other way to make my special day superbly happy.  I don’t know if it is the age or the big distance that I have away from my family that is making me more sentimental.  Sure enough, I am very thankful for the grace of working abroad because it taught me to draw happiness from the simple things in life.  It’s worth every dollar spent.  No money can pay for the regrets that I would feel when I look back to my 30th bday and celebrated it away from my family. 

I’ve lifted up to the Lord my 30th birthday and it turned out perfect.  I am still looking forward to a year-long celebration.  I don’t know what He has in store for me.  May God be praised!!

10 more days to go before my 30^th birthday!!!! Yahoo!!!  Honestly speaking I had and still having an emotional roller coaster these past few months.   I think it’s part of my transition to a more mature role.  Hahaha parang starlet!! 

As I’ve said in my previous blog, I’ve conceptualized so many great things that I would be doing on my 30^th birthday.   Though reality had bitten me quite a lot by preventing some of those great things to happen.  My initial reaction was to look at the positive side though I resorted to retail therapy unconsciously.   

Part of this positive regimen was to convince myself that I will just spend my birthday here in Singapore and do something unique on my birthday.  I’ve started to look for friends who can take a leave and do crazy stuffs with.   Unfortunately, my day falls on a Wednesday and no one is willing to take a leave.  I almost lose hope and felt a deep sadness.  BUT!!! I am really thankful to God for Raya, my beloved sister in SFC, who was so willing to accompany me on my birthday.  Take note! Not just to accompany but was so very much into giving me a wonderful and outrageous 30^th birthday.  Just the thought of her effort really gave me a warm feeling.

Last Thursday, I was on the phone with my sister and she told me stories about my niece and nephews.   I remembered the longing that I heard in my mother’s voice when she asked me if I am going back for my birthday.  I remembered the longing in my niece and nephews voices for me to be home this Christmas.  At that point, I realized what I really want to do on my birthday.   I may not have the other outrageous plans but one thing’s for sure I really like to spend it with my family.   I’ve realized that I can be in New York to celebrate but I don’t know if my celebration will be complete without them.   So even if my boss didn’t allow me to take a leave, I booked a flight to Manila and wrote him an email of my emotions and gave him no choice.  Hehe… It might sound wicked but at the end of the day it would be his gain also because I know I am not happy going to work everyday.   As a result, I will always report to work very late but now I can perform better!!  It’s just that I don’t want to look back to my 30^th birthday without a smile on my face.   At least now I know that I would look back to it with a heartwarming story behind.   See! What a good bedtime story for my future grandchildren!!! J 

Oh well! This is the first part of my celebration.   I am leaving to God the next chapters.