Life, Love and Relationships

Almost 5 months ago I wrote my ‘A child again’ blog.  I didn’t celebrate my 30th birthday with a bang but I prayed to God for Him to give me a whole year full of surprises.   Believe it or not, I’ve been receiving a lot of surprises from Him! 

For a starter, I’ve just realized today that I have found most of the things that I have been looking for.   I’ve found a white pants that perfectly fits me, a white rugged shoes that I got on sale :), the jeans equivalent to the fit and style of the one I got in US in 2003, a black boot-type shoes that is inexpensive and most especially a copy of the song ‘Last dance’.  This year, He also gave me the chance to cross paths with a man that has the qualities that I’ve been praying for.  He also gave me a chance to create a more intimate relationship with Him.  This year He answered all my doubts and erased all my hesitations to the SFC community.  Along with this, He gave me the passion to serve and a heart for GK.  Also, He awakened my dream of working in US.  Add to that the fact that He gave me a company that will sponsor my visa.  Thus, allowing me to stay here in Singapore to earn more money that I need to start my life with in US.   Most of all, He allowed me to experience His presence in my life much, much more.

I am so thankful that I got to enjoy even the smallest things that He is giving me this year.  Small or big His surprise may be, I can really say that I am very happy.  Wow! Imagine we are just in the 5th month of the year.  I still have 7 more months to go to anticipate all of His surprises for me.  :)   

Actually, I still have a lifetime to experience His glory and wonders because the greatest gift that He gave is opening my eyes and heart to HIM.

Moomai a child forever….

I’ve received the ultimate message from God tonight!  That is - ‘Focus your eyes, whole being and heart on me and you will see My glory’.   This is indeed His greatest gift for me this year.

My friend Berns’s life is a living manifestation of God’s unlimited blessings if we remain faithful to Him.  Her life is an inspiration of God’s glory.  I’ve seen her wait for a partner.  I’ve seen her wait for a chance to work in US.  These are two of the things that we have in common.  Now! Everything is given to her.  She will get married this year and will move to South Africa to work and eventually move to US. :)  After she updated me with her life, I really said over and over again ‘Ang galing talaga ni Lord! Buhos-buhos!’.  Then I looked up to heaven to give God a ‘pa-cute’ dreamy gaze!

If I reviewed her time of waiting, what I saw her did was to deepen her relationship with God.  Along with this she served God like crazy thru SFC and GK.  She did these things whole-heartedly and with passion.

This year God equipped me with the seeds of passion, whole-heartedness in serving, desires, intimate realtionship with Him and a call to service!  Now! It’s up to me how I will make these seeds grow.

P.S.  After the February Baguio SFC conference, my heart opened up to serve Him thru SFC and GK and I started serving Him with passion.  True enough He made me feel blessed by giving me the chance to meet a man with the qualities that I’ve been praying for and He gave me a US job opportunity. :)  Though I still need to wait for my US visa processing and for the one for me.  But now I know what to do while waiting. :)   

Thanks Berns for the inspiration. :)  God answered my prayer for a happy and positive motivation.

I have this very good friend named Badette.  She is a friend since way, way, way back.  We had our ups and downs but still we are able to keep our friendship as strong as ever. 

A few days ago I received a friendster message from her.  She told me that she always gives me as an example to her kids as a person that valued education to achieve what I want in life.  She also told me that her other friends know me because she is always sharing my life story.  I really can’t help but be flattered and be thankful to her and to God.

Before I answered and thanked her, I stopped for a while to ask myself ‘Hhhmmm what are the real factors that led me to where I am now? Is it only education?’.  Thanks to the Holy Spirit for giving me the answers and it includes being goal-oriented and determined and doing things according to God’s ways.

Everytime our company presents its goal to us, I always have this question in mind ‘What the heck is the use of a goal??’.   It’s just now that I’ve totally understood its role in one’s life.   You see, I always dream of having a family of my own and a marriage that are God-centered, happy, solid and full of love.  I also promised myself that I would minimize accumulating a lot of what-could-have-beens in my life.  True enough, these goals along with the other factors gave me focus.  Looking back in time I can say that every decision that I made was always inspired by my goals and of what I believed in.   This focus also prevented me from sinning a lot of times.  There are a lot of situations that could have led me to sin but thanks to my goals and God’s help, I was able to keep myself away from it.   Another factor that I have identified is my asking God often to decide for me in case I am required to make a very, very big decision.   

One thing is for sure, I owe all of these to Him.  I am thankful to Him for making and molding me to be the person that I am.   Please don’t get the wrong impression that I am saying ‘I am perfect’ because I know I am not.  I am still included in His work in progress drawer and I will stay there with delight knowing that He is my refiner.

I’ve just updated my friendster profile with ‘The Last Dance’ as my official favorite song. 

God knows how long I’ve been searching for a copy of this song.  In a very unexpected way I came across one.  Thanks to Marcia’s Burn the Floor CD. I will always remember you Marcia because of this.   I almost went crazy when I heard the last track as the "Last Dance".  I’ve been playing it for the nth time already. 

You see, this song was the one I was singing when I had the idea of having my own concert with only my closest friends as invited guests.  The reason?  Well, they are so close to me that they will be forced to enjoy my concert.  Bwahahahaha!!

During that time I imagined myself up on stage singing, dancing and entertaining my audience.  I don’t know, this song really has a very different impact to me.  It’s like I am in a trance.  I am in a different level of my being.  I can’t help myself from closing my eyes and imagining that I am dancing with the man I love.  There goes my sentimental and mushy side again.  Hehehehe.

Haaaayyyy… that’s what I can just do now, a heavy sigh. :)   A sigh with a matching vision of me and my beloved dancing to the tune of the ‘Last Dance’.  And it will never be the Last Dance for us.

I feel so blessed!!!  Why? Because God gave me a glimpse of the man that I have been praying for. J  Yup! You read it right!  I met a man that fits my prayers.

As a backgrounder, my SFC friends told me to pray for specific characteristics of what I like for a husband-to-be.   So there I was thinking very hard of what I want for a husband then started to pray.  However, I doubted if such a man exists.   I even imagine God knocking my head off whenever I pray.  Hehe.  But VOILA!!!  God really loves and knows me so much that He gave me the opportunity of crossing paths with such a man.  With this experience He erased all my doubts and made me firm whenever I pray. 

Well that person might not be the one for me.  I might not fit the bill of the person that he is praying for.  But he served his purpose in my life, and that is, what I am praying for is realistic.  Now I can imagine God not knocking my head off anymore.  I can now imagine Him saying ‘In my time dear child’. J