Life, Love and Relationships

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September 1 was the finals of our ITO idol competition and thank God for allowing me to win the 2nd runner-up title.  Yup!! You heard it right I was one of the winners.  This is my first experience of joining a singing competition and my first experience of trying to believe in what others are saying about my ability to sing. 

I sang ‘will survive’ and this is literally MY song.  The song I sang with passion in videoke bars.  My battle cry in life especially during break-ups. Hehehe.  Thank God for replacing my battle cry with praise and worship songs now.  Hehehe.

The idol journey gave me 2 free 24×14 copies of our photo shoot pictures and an IPOD nano.  Believe it or not, it’s been years that I’ve really longed for all of these things but opted not to buy because of practicality reasons.  Now I have it for free!!! God is my provider indeed!!

I can really say that God sang for me when I was up on the stage.   Days before the finals, I tried to practice but after singing the first line of ‘I will survive’, I know I can’t push further because of my tonsilitis.  That’s why I just practiced for the sake of memorizing the lyrics and to try not to stutter while singing.  So tell me with a still sore throat who could have helped me during the actual competition but only God himself.

I believe that God heard the concerted prayers that all of you, my friends in and out of SFC, offered.  I believe that He heard your would be cheers and happiness if I win.   I believe that He would like to show off to me how lucky and blessed I am to have my own army of angels here on earth.   Yes, it is true.  Through this competition I felt so blessed and so loved with the thought that I have my angels here on earth. 

Thank you to my friends that prayed for and believed in me, to my friends who boosted my morale, to my friends who made and carried the banners and actually cheered during the semis, to my friends who I know were very, very happy and shared my victorious feeling when I won, to my friends who donated for the belt I’ve worn during the finals, to my costume consultant Miaggy who loaned me her 2 tops, 1 belt and accessories and for initiating the belt drive, thanks for taking the time to discuss what I will wear.  Thanks to my friends who helped me choose the song.  Thanks to my all-around manager Sir Mike for really playing his being an ITO manager role so well.  Actually, he is also my manager at work.   Thanks to my friends who silently supported me.  Thanks for all your sms and emails of encouragement and congratulations.  Thanks to my best bud in Manila, Chai.  The only being in Philippines who knows I am going to join.  Hehe shy kasi ako sabihin sa iba.  Truly, you are all God’s instruments to push me to carry on.

This blog is my tribute to all of you.  The idol experience showed me how God loves me so much by giving you to me.  I really felt your care, your support and your trust in me even if I myself don’t trust my capabilities.  You were all there to boost my confidence and I can say that it was really a BIG, BIG reason why I decided to go through with the competition.  It was such a wonderful, happy and warm feeling to know that you really celebrated with me and was actually jumping up and down when you heard the news of our winning.  It was really a different ecstatic feeling to know that your friends are sharing your victory.  Basta! Iba talaga!! Sobrang unexplainable. 

Oh well, I don’t know what God has in store for me next year.  But I know for sure that when I leave this country, I will leave it with puffy red eyes because you have made my stay here in Singapore worth the thousand tears.   Thanks for making my 2006 a very special year.  A year that I’ve asked the Lord to be special because it’s my 30th year of existence.