Life, Love and Relationships

I continue to live

Each day with You

Hoping that someday

I will be with You

I continue to fight

Each trial for You

Hoping in the end

I will triumph with You

I continue to love

Each beat for You

Hoping that each day

Is pleasing for You

I continue to smile

Each smile from you

Hoping everyone

Smiles back at You

The poem above is a lighter version of the poem that Almin wants me to revise hehe. :)  Here goes the original.

Tears of pain as I fight for You

I treat as a symbol

A symbol of hope from You

Hope that one day I will be resting with You

Tears of sorrow brought by the world

I treat as a ray of light

A light of hope from You

Hope that a smile is on its way from You

Tears of hurt because of trials

I treat as a triumph

A triumph of hope from You

Hope that I will get closer in deeper relation with You

Tears of joy as I realize your unfailing love

I treat as a reminder

A reminder of hope from You

Hope that everything is only the best from You

Cheers!!! For the greater glory of God!!!

Wondering Your plan for me

Reaching the point of letting go

The point of making drastic moves

What made me hold on?

It’s the thought of Your great love for me

A love that promises pure eternity

A love that only wants the best for me

A love that assures happiness

Questioning your love for me

Reaching the point of despise

The point of turning my back on you

What made me stay?

It’s the thought of Your great love for me

A love that promises pure eternity

A love that only wants the best for me

A love that assures happiness for me

It’s You that keeps me going

It’s You that keeps me holding on

It’s You that calms the storm

It’s You that brings pure happiness

As I imagine you and me

As I imagine you with me

As I imagine you for me

I can only think of good music playing for eternity

I can only think of a promise of everlasting happiness

I can only think every little bit of my prayer answered

Here I am wondering

Here I am questioning

Here I am thinking

Do you really feel the same for me?

Is what I have in mind just a product of a dream?

A dream of you and me

Somewhere along the line I need to know

I need to know if I should wake up from this dream

Somewhere along the line I must know

I must know if you really are for me

More than a year ago I’ve posted my ideals vs reality blog and posted a question to everybody when I ended it.  Thanks be to God because He has given me the answer.

I am enjoying His gift of day job for me to fulfill my realitistic dreams.  At the same time, He gave me my SFC community to fulfill my idealistic dreams.  His community serves as my venue to sing and dance for Him and for myself.  His community serves as His way of purifying me to be a better woman of God. 

Imagine, hindi lang Niya binigay sa akin ang passion ko may sobrang napakalaking bonus pa ng pag guide Niya sa akin to be a better person in His eyes.  It’s a constant journey towards Him.  There are bumps along the way but I know that He is there for me.

Nasagot ko na ang tanong ko sa Kanya dati kung bakit hindi ako tinatawagan whenever I sign up to be a part of lectors and commentators group sa simbahan.  This was during the times when I was seeking how to serve Him and I still don’t have a community.  He really knows me so well and He knows where to call me to serve Him with my full potential.

To God be the glory always and in all ways!  He is my God!  My source of everything and my everything!

One of the so, so, so many best gifts that God gave me last year was the best counterattack to my so many bouts of envy and attacks of just settling to be so overly radical and worldly.   He led me to a verse which says something like don’t look at others might have gotten especially the ones that do not follow me because I know what is best for you and am taking care of you. (Pasensya na di talaga ako magaling tumanda ng mga verses hehe)  This is where I get my refuge and comfort in times of envy and doubt.

Just a few samples of envy in my twisty mind are ‘Bakit yung mga politikong manloloko ang yaman-yaman na ako hindi?’, ‘Bakit siya meron ng someone ako wala pa?’, ‘Bakit kaya siya nasa company na may libreng travel ako hindi?’ J   I am almost healed of envy.  Why almost?  Kasi may mga sporadic attacks pa rin ako but I learn to manage it by repeating God’s power verse for me.  That and knowing that I am at the place where He wants me to be, gives me the comfort that God is taking good care me.   He will always remind me of the many great things that happened in my life as I unconsciously journeyed with Him.  Through my experiences and His surprises, He reminds me that He will surprise me even more.  Ayan! Napapangiti na naman ako ng napakalaki at napakasweet. J 

In times of doubt, I always ask Him if I am at the right path.  I always ask Him what He wills me to do.  I always ask Him how I can make myself better.  Most of all, I always ask Him for guidance and for me to know His guidance.  Ask lang ng ask kasi kahit ako hindi ko rin alam kun paano Niya ako igaguide pero sa ending e alam kong ginaguide niya ako. J

Meron pa palang isa, I always make it a point to grow where He plants me. J

Loves ako ni Lord and I am sure ikaw rin. J