Life, Love and Relationships

This morning my friend Rey texted me this ‘It is raining heavily and am stuck in the exit to PIE from tampines.  PIE is so near yet so far’.  This could be a joke from him but a thought run into my mind that I replied him with.

‘Funny how a simple traffic can make us realize other things in our life.  Things that will just lead us to a heavy sigh.  Soon things will be nearer if it is the will of God.’  As I type it now I realized that I need to rephrase the last sentence.  It should be ‘Soon things will be nearer as the will of God unfolds’.

There was a part in my 2007 when I was really trying to read what is God’s plan for me.  This stressed me out a lot and caused me anxiety even.  Then I came across Proverbs 3:5-6 ‘Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all Your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths’.  At the same time, a friend that I haven’t heard from texted me that she has a feeling that I am thinking of something and the message that she needs to impart is for me to keep the faith and for me to wait patiently to see the bigger picture.

That verse and that sms put my mind in perspective.  I realized I was so caught up with analyzing things.  Then I told myself to just enjoy the journey and focus myself on the wonderful things that He is giving me everyday.  Once again I focused on Him and trust that He will take care of me and my needs.  It was indeed a great restart as that thought gave me a lighter heart and made me like a child full of gratitude to whatever it is that He is surprising me with.

You are my refuge and my strength! :)  To GOD be the glory!

I am Moomai.  I am an ADDICT!!! 

There! Finally, my heart is lighter as I shout to the whole world that I am guilty of addiction.  At first, I tried to avoid the object of my addiction.  Out of pride, I tried to fight silently the influence of the people around me.  Telling myself, ‘HA!! You can’t get through ME!’, ‘I don’t like to look like a fool as you’, ‘Why would I do that? I am so comfortable in being me.’

But, their Grand Master approached and talked with me.  He knows me so well that He knows how to break me into giving in.  He patiently and silently waited for me to give in.

At first, I tried light doses then I found myself addicted to it.  I can’t remember when I started taking it in full dose but I can only remember one thing and that is, the experience is spactular!!! I was on a HIGH!!!  Different emotions are flooding in everytime I do it.  I can say that each experience is different from the others.  Sometimes you will see me smiling, sometimes you will see me crying, sometimes you will see me in my most ‘pa-cute’ mode, sometimes you will see me in my most energetic mode, sometimes you will see me in my most romantic mode.  There are times when all of these happen in one session.

Unlike other addiction, I refuse to be treated out of this one! This is final!! :) 

I am Moomai.  I am a PRAISE & WORSHIP ADDICT!!!! :)  Hope you get addicted, too!!

Nakakatuwa talaga… :)  Ibang klaseng ngiti ang namutawi… ngiti na sobrang tuwang-tuwa kasi first time kong makaranas na talagang mapagalitan ako at marinig yun clearly…

Ilang araw na akong nakakareceive ng message na put Him first tapos sinabayan pa nun blog ko na He answered my refined prayers.  Tapos kanina bluntly as I read for the second time yung calendar of a prayerful woman nakalagay don na ‘Everything in the universe is in order and that is how God created it. It is also what He wants for our life.’  Ika nga first thing’s first. :)  Pagkabasa ko nung page na yun natawa na lang talaga ako bigla sa sarili ko at napa-’oo nga, sorry ha hehe’.

I need to refine my prayer and I should keep in mind that He should be the first.  I am refining myself to put Him as first before anything or anybody else that I almost forgot to put Him first before myself. :)  Mas dapat nga pala yun, una pa rin Siya than my comfort, una pa rin Siya than my wants and my needs.  Kaya first thing’s first and I need to focus on that as I pray.  I need to be comforted with the thought that He has the best plan for me and that He knows the deepest desires of my heart.  One thing is for sure, He always gives me the best and for that I will wait.

To God be the glory!!! Nakakatuwa talaga ang first time.  First time kong mapagalitan at natutuwa ako!  Weird ko talaga.

Knock, knock, who’s there?  Holy Spirit!  Holy Spirit, WHO???

I was that.  I used to underestimate the power of the Holy Spirit to the point of not acknowledging its existence.  Through all the twist and turns in my life, I am journeying to appreciate its full existence, potential and power.  Now, I am still in the process of fully acquainting myself to it and I am 70% there.

I had a one-on-one session with Ely last night.  Thru her mother’s words ‘Don’t underestimate the power of the Holy Spirit’, I heard God affirming me of its presence and majesty in our lives.

It is the Holy Spirit that allows me to say that our God is our God.  It is the only reason and source why I can share to the people I talked with how wonderful God is.  It is the one that gives me the ideas on how to do my work and service.  It is the one that empowers me to dance gracefully, to sing from the heart and to do other things greatly for Him.  It is the one that fills my whole being as God’s presence.  It is God’s spirit and I pray that one day it will fill me completely as I journey as a big work-in-progress creation.

COMPLETELY, CONSUME ME!! ß My battlecry!!!

By the way, as my purpose last night is to do His work He gave me a very unexpected bonus. *wink*wink*sweetest, pa-cute smile* hehe J

Another affirmation came thru a friend’s sms ‘We should never underestimate the work that we don in the name of the Lord.  God is able to bring extraordinary results from the most ordinary people.  The Lord doesn’t look for ability or talent when seeking servants but He does seek for a surrendered heart ready to follow where God leads.’

2006… taon na ang dami kong kailangang isipin… taon na ang dami kong pinroblema… taon na ang dami kong kailangang pagdesisyunan na talagang napakalaki ng impact sa buhay… taon na feeling ko e nawawala ako… taon na ang daming bagay na nagpapagulo sa isip ko… taon na emotionally draining… taon na kailangan kong malaman ang tumatakbo sa isip ni Lord para sa mga bagay na gusto Niya para sa buhay ko… taon na madaming mixed signals sa mga pangyayari sa bawat araw ng buhay ko… taon na nagtanong ako kung ano ba ang power and majesty ni Lord… taon na nagtanong ako kung paano ba mararamdaman yun… taon na nagrereklamo ako pero sige pa rin tuloy pa rin…

Pagkatapos ng bagyo noong 2006.  Ito ako napapangiti dahil ibang klase ang nadulot sa akin ng isang taon na yun.  Madami akong hinuhugot sa mga pinagdaanan ko noong isang taon as my friends share their struggles to me.  God used my struggles to give back the glory to Him as I journey through life.

If you are going to ask me if there is even a second that I will change in the way my 2006 went, I will readily say NO!!!! I will not even change even a millisecond of it. :)  It was a paradox my draining and my sweetest year.  Ang pinakagusto ko sa lahat e mas nakilala ko Siya ng lubusan. :)  ALIW!!!!

Lord, I offer my life to You everything I’ve been through use it for your glory.

I just had lunch with SFCs working in Alexandra Area. 

Ito na naman ako at napapasmile ng todo-todo na napakasweet at kinikilig na naman! :)  God affirmed His message to me of Him answering our prayers.  Nagulat talaga ako nun narinig kong sinabi ni Weng na isa ako sa inspirasyon niya ng mga tao na dinidinig talaga ni Lord ang mga prayers natin.  Honestly speaking, I was really not aware of that.  It was just last year that I was starting to explore that part that He really hears our prayers.  Maybe, I used to  concentrate more on my "unanswered" ones.

Would you believe, it was just recently (as I prayed over someone during baptism of the Holy Spirit) that I didn’t doubt every word that I utter as I communicate to God.  That recently was my 3rd time to be a DGL hehe :)  Wala lang, I remember as I used to take prayer only as a routine and something that I just need to do and just need to say. I used to have this question in mind ‘May use ba talaga ang prayer ko?’.  I remember when Berns gave us a prayer book where we are to write our prayers, the date that we first asked for it and the date it was granted.  I feared writing in that booklet for the reason that I might just be frustrated if I learn that none will be answered.

Two things I realized.  First, a compliment and honoring word can really go a long way to the person on the receiving end.  Weng might have thought that I already know that part of me but in reality I didn’t.  That simple sentence brought a smile to my spirit. That’s why I will continue to give a word of praise to the people around me.  Second, I should not concentrate on the unanswered prayers.  As I look back to my supposed unanswered prayers, I’ve reached the point when I refined it, it was during those times that God answered it.  Actually, I am so thankful because God led me to refine it because He gave me the best when He didn’t answer my unrefined prayers.

Thanks for the affirmation Weng! :)  That went a long way! :)  Kaya pray lang ng pray!! If God knows that is the best for you then He will grant it! :)  If not then continue to refine it and seek His will.

God bless our journey towards Him! It’s priceless. - MOOMAI flashing my sweetest smile na parang lukaret. Hi hi..

Just came from a dance practice.  As I sweat and as I enjoy every move, I readily thank God for the extra energy He gave me and for the chance to exercise again.

On my way home on an MRT ride, I suddenly realize something that really made me smile like a kinikilig na teenager, a literally crazy in love person kasi mukha talaga ata akong sira na nakangiti mag-isa sa train. :) 

You know what I realized?  He granted again one of my so-called petty wishes.  Mga tipong nagcross lang sa mind ko at nasabi ko sa Kanya and also what I often tell my friends na gusto kong mangyari.

It was to dance with really great dancers. :)  I was really honored and very privileged to be picked by Bryan to dance for the Philippine Independence Day celebration in SG. :)  Salamat bro! Sobra!

A thought hit me because once again God heard even my simplest and passing prayer. :)  He is really faithful and He can never be outdone in generosity. :)  It’s so beautiful to live each day appreciating all the many blessings that He is giving me in so many forms.  I believe that I’ve reached this because He poured upon me the Holy Spirit as I seek Him and heed His call.

One thing is for sure, He had proven to me again that He hears the desires of our heart. Kaya interesting talaga… (sabay hawak sa baba at sabi ng hhmmmm) :)  INTERESTING..

O di ba, talaga namang mapapasmile ka sa tuwa! :)  Hanggang ngayon nga as I write this e nakangiti ako na parang magpapapicture sa studio. :) 

*super dooper tight hugs*  Thanks for loving me!!

Oo nga pala, I believe He also answered my prayer that I started in January and that is for Him to make me feel, hear and see Him in every second of my life. :)  There are still tough times and struggles but those are the times that He makes me feel His presence even more!!

Alone in a lift, my attention was suddenly led to my toes.  As I looked at it and squeezed it against my high-heeled sandals, I suddenly smiled my sweetest and beamed it up to God.  In that moment I saw my toes like Pong Pagong’s head hi hi hi. Weird but for me Pong Pagong is really, really cute.  In short, I saw my toes as cute and chubby as him. :) 

At that moment, I acknowledged God’s reminder that He created my toes perfectly.  :)  Perfectly to delight me and to give me a smile. I suddenly thought that, that will be the moment I will always try to remember whenever I look at my toes and see it differently in a negative way.

Just like our lives, we sometimes see it as cursed whenever we feel down and out.  During those moments, we can look back and focus on the times when we are so blessed and it will definitely lift up our spirits.

Today, everytime I am alone in the lift I always look down on my toes and can only see cute, chubby and blessed creations.

GOD is GREAT!!!

During my recent oppressions, I was led to write this poem as He uplifted my spirit through His music particularly through the song ‘Paghahandog’ in Hangad’s version.

Your music…   It speaks to my soul.  As it uplifts my spirit and whole being

Your music…  It speaks to my mind.  As it reminds me that You only have the best plan for me

Your music… It speaks to my heart.  As it reminds me of Your great love for me

Your music… Tells me that You are always there for me… Tells me that You will never let me go… Tells me not to worry on what the future might bring…

Your music… So sweet…

Your music… So assuring…

Your music… so YOU…

For all of these may God be praised!!!

It’s been quite a while since I last updated my blog.  Thanks for the push from friends who told me that they miss my blogs.  You know who you are and God used you as instruments to get the blood flowing thru my fingers once again. J 

After God convinced me that I should take on the role as discussion group leader permanently, I finally decided to give my full commitment to serve as one in our ongoing CLP.  We were always reminded that as we serve there will be spiritual battles that will be presented by the dark force (parang star wars ito ah hehe).  This is one area that I am not yet so sensitive with, so I underestimated it.  Thinking that bad things really happen and those are just normal mishaps and happenings in our lives.

Thanks be to God for enlightening and saving me from my innocence.  True enough, I had oppressions which came from situations that when thought of are just petty happenings.  However, the alarm went off as it almost led me to doubt God’s promise of care and happiness, it almost led me to unleash my wickedness and it almost led my service to be shaken.  I am really so thankful to Him for taking me out of that pit.  I forced myself to pray for Him to fight it for me.  At first, I asked Him to fight it WITH me but I right away changed it to Him fighting it for me.

I learned a lot from this experience.  First, the devil is at work not just thru bigger mishaps in our lives.  If it knows that we can identify him in greater things he will start to creep in our lives thru small doses of mishaps.  Small doses when accumulated can have a great effect.  Second, I’ve appreciated the truth behind the word pray, pray and pray.  We should call to Him in almost everything that is happening in our lives.  May it be in times of great or small trials or mishaps.  Third, cling to Him and always keep the faith.  Help Him to fight the battle by helping yourself to fight it.  Choose for your spirits not to be crushed.  Choose FIGHT than flight.  Choose SWIM than sink.  Fourth, His help comes in so many forms and we just need to take full advantage of it.  I felt it thru His music, His reminder on how He had helped me with my past experiences and most especially His reminder of how great is His love for me.

That’s why,  offer a prayer of thanksgiving for every blessing that you receive may it be big or small.  Beg Him for help in times of distress no matter how big or small it is.  I am reminded once again that in Him and with Him I am always a WINNER! J