Life, Love and Relationships

Father’s day…  It was so unexpected… I found myself silently crying while I was praying after communion… just how I am crying now as I write this blog…

There I was kneeling when suddenly I remember my father and the thought that crossed my mind when I called to greet him a happy father’s day.  It was the thought that my parents are getting older each day.  It became intense when he relayed the story of the death of his colleague in the police force. 

At that moment and up to now, I want to fly back home just to spend quality time with him.  I want to rest on his shoulders, to watch movie with him, to drink coffee with him…  simply to be with him…

He showed me a love that goes beyond words.  A love that I can depend on when all things around me crumbles.  He secured me that he is my stronghold and my saviour no matter what. 

God taught me the true meaning of love thru him that no matter how imperfect my father is God didn’t allow me to hate him completely for he is my father and God has a reason why he is mine.  God showed me that He is my divine healer as I cried for help for Him to heal me of my anger and hatred. 

God taught me a lot thru my father and this is enough reason why he will always be MY PAPPY.

I love you Pappy! I am so blessed to have you.

If I can choose to be where I want to be at this very second, withouth a doubt it will be back home with my father silently listening to the AM radio.

God bless us all!!!

I’ve resolved my case… God is INDEED everywhere!

As I start my 2007 journey, I’ve 100% identified God in all the people, places, events, things and memories that gave me joy, gladness, smile and laughter.  I know that God is always with me in every second of my life but how can I identify Him in times of trouble, anxiety, pain, sorrow and irritations?

Until I was given the answer while I was writing an inspiring message to a sister in SFC.  This is what I found…

God is in everything that brings joy, smile, gladness and happiness to us for He loves to see us happy.

God is in everything that can irritate us for He loves us so much to give us a chance to realize what is it inside of us that needs changing.  He loves us so much that He wants us to be closer to Him by making us holy.

God is in everything that brings us sorrow and pain for He likes to introduce Himself to us as not only a God in times of happiness but a God in times of need.  A God that we can cling on to.

I can go on and on with this but the most important thing is we need to keep in mind to see God in everything that we do and in everything that we say, no matter where we are, no matter who we are dealing with.

For all of these, may our almighty God be praised!!!

I am in my Refiner’s fire.  Sent with so much trials to purify me.

I’ve finally admitted that I am guilty of praise and worship addiction! Now, I am here to tell the story on how it all began.

Before I join SFC, I am already a fanatic of Bukas Palad and Himig Heswita type of religious music. Inside the community we sang a lot of praise and worship songs that are really new to my ears.  There I was a person resistant of community life and a person with a pride on my spirituality, used to frown and take SFC songs for granted.  I always asked other SFC why we are not singing other religious songs.  I also didn’t bother to raise my hands, close my eyes, jump and dance while praising.

Until one day, God made me realize that I always dance my heart out in bars and clubs.  Moving to a beat is almost a second nature to me because you will always see me moving to it even if I am in a supermarket alone. Hehe, you should catch me when there is a music playing and I feel that I am alone and have my own world.  :)  So… why can’t I do the same with the songs for Him?  This got me thinking.

The next thing that God made me realize is that, why am I shy to raise my hands and to give in manifesting my praises to Him?  I realized that I was focusing on the people around me that I fail to recognize that I only need to focus on HIM and not on the people around me.  Again, this got me thinking.

With all these realizations in mind, I’ve finally decided to give a levelled-up praise and worship a try… Hhhhmmm… I wonder what would happen next???

To be continued….

Moomai <- God’s performer for I can’t do anything without Him. :)  Even writing this blog is an inspiration from Him.