Life, Love and Relationships

11 days from now I will start to work in a job that far exceeded what I’ve prayed for.  I will be doing what I realized I want to do.  I will be led by a very, very good boss, professionally and personally.  I will be working as a permanent.  I will get lots of benefits that far exceeded my expectations. 

As I wait for the HR notice of contract signing, I got anxious thinking ‘is this for real?’ ‘what if it will not materialize’.  Here is a promise of a job that is really heaven sent and an answer to my prayer.  This is too good to be true.  (Hehe parang answered prayer sa love)

I can very well remember my simple prayer and it was for Him to bless me with a regular job to enjoy sick leaves and maternity leaves (call it as claiming by faith a future of married life) :)   

Offers came as signs of His hope.  1st offer was a contract position in a company that I really like.  I turned it down because I don’t like the boss that I will be working for.  2nd passing offer came for a contract position that I really turned down.  3rd offer came which was refined to answer my prayer.  It was at first a contract position but was worked out to be a perm position.

I believe that He refined me first in humility.  I believe that He let me experience a lot of hardships for me to appreciate fully this blessing.  I believe that He made me realize what I really want to do in my life before He gave me this job.  I believe He reacquainted me with what I have become after all these years.  I believe that He knows me more than I know myself.  I believe that He loves me so much that He instilled who He is in my life.  I believe that He is my great provider and no one and nothing can beat His perfect timing.

I am God’s beloved! :)  In 2007, I’ve started a journey knowing that I am God’s beloved.  This is all because I know that God offered me His perfect love that despite of my imperfection He genuinely loves me!!

I’ve embraced His love which caused me to walk a new walk, to talk a new talk and to act a new act!  With this something tremendously new in my life, I am asking Him on how I will live my daily life and handle it responsibly.  I’ve experimented and yes, I came to a point when I became a spoiled and bratty child.

He loves me so much because even before I reach the highest point of rottenness, He saved me.  He reminded me through His words that there is no ifs and no buts in loving Him which is a response to His love for me.  During my refinement period, I’ve reasoned that I can say what I want to say because I was created by God to be that way.  Through His words, He reminded me on how His love for me is and how that same love is expected of me to give to others.

As I realized all these, I asked for His forgiveness and was sent by the song FOREVER.  This is my prayer and will be until the time that I am this prayer.  The lines that ultimately struck me are ‘I’ll live for all my days, To put a smile on Your face’. 

He should be the cause of all my actions.  He should be the reason of my whole being.  He should be the driving force of all my passion! 

I know that this is hard but it is not impossible with my one Big God who loves me so, so, so much!!!

To God be the glory!!!